Lord, You know my thoughts and my intentions. You know my heart and mind more than me. I know You understand the reasons behind my plans and decisions in the past. And I am sorry for the moments that I have doubted You during my darkest moments. I have realized that You have never left me, You were there through my family. You were there to make me feel blessed despite my doubts on You and Your plans.

Thank you for all the blessings, though some may think I have taken some for granted. In my heart, I am truly glad for everything you have given me. Thank you for all the trials, it surely opened my eyes to reality. And it made me realize what I really want in life. And for letting me the the good and bad side of life. And for letting me know the people who really loves me, those who stays with me, and those who have faith on me. Thank you for the people who continues to love, understand and support me.

Please help me become a better person everyday. And help me have an open heart and mind, for whatever plans You have for me. Please, please help me understand and accept whatever plans You have laid for me. And in any decisions I have to make, I know You will always guide me.

I trust You. Despite my imperfections, I will strive to build a stronger and closer relationship with You. I love you.

I am not perfect, but I loved you

I admit, I am not perfect.

I make mistakes, I often make things complicated.

I make things harder for people I love.

But this is me, and this is how I love people.

When I value people, they feel shitty about it.

And I get hurt.

If loving them makes their like shitty,

then, wouldn't it be better if I won't give them any affection?

I can always adjust to anyone's personality,

even if that means forgetting my own happiness.

I don't pretend to be someone I'm not,

I don't mind understanding them,

I never forget who I am,

but I know how to love people.

If loving them much will make their life complicated,

if that love will only make them hate me,

then I'd rather keep all this love to myself.

They don't need it.

i love you, goodbye

I have learned today that you can never really trust anyone. People will still leave, abandon and ignore, or even forsake you. I feel sad, but I am ok. I didn't regret trusting you, it was part of loving, however I will learn from this. Couple of times did I try to understand you. A number of times did I ignore your indifference. Because I love you.

Now that I know what's in your heart, I have gone weary of waiting. I am tired of loving all of you. I am tired of constantly worrying about you. I am done loving you, now it's my turn to love myself.

This isn't the first time, I should have learned my lesson earlier. History repeats itself indeed, you are no different from the rest. I should have known.

From now onwards, I will never love all of you again. I have already given my best, but I don't think you have noticed it. I have loved you the best way I can, whether you have noticed it or not, that was enough for me. Thank you for the memories. But I am moving on, and never looking back no matter what happens.